yesterday went to find mr p@nd@. meant for it as a surprise. wanna to ensure he is at there so i online to msn him and chatted a while. bluffed i go buy breakfast then took bus down. but p@nd@ not stupid lei. he called me not even 20min after i left home asked me where i am. he heard the bus ding dong sound so i said travelled to buy food mah. but he straight mentioned that he got a feeling im going to find him >.< i just denied it lolx.

first few hours he was studying and i was surfing Net. got super bored so decided to go take a walk. guess wad? i got lost. couldnt find the exit where i had exited from T_T walked around and p@nd@ saw me doing that. he thought i pruposely de so no come find me. end up stuck outside for close half hour in the hot sun X_X went back and was neglected once more. so i walked off to another room to be alone. i dunno how long i sat there with my head hung. then suddenly i suddenly have a feeling he came to look for me..

stood up and turned around. there is mr p@nd@. it is again intution which brought him to my hiding place. felt happy yet sad cos i recalled some message inside his hp... well but no matter wad, i had a great time with him. a relaxing Sunday! heex =D

recently life's been like a roller coaster for me. learning new things and having to juggle emotions and remember all that im taught. sometimes my memory fails me; end up causing my colleague having to cover my back or because of me keep re-do certain things. still trying to absorb as best as i could. but hey yeah, i am enjoying my new job scope. creating domains and stuffs are easy thanks to service automation. perhaps gotta thank izeno after all haha. was that done by them though? not sure lei LOL. now hai hao larsh. aimming to get off work by 6.30pm each time. starting to be able to liao. things should be will improve by next week =)

recently loves panda a lot. hahax. thanks to a friend who looks like a panda. he very li hai. one day sleeps less than 7 hours de. then can go without sleep for quite long. sch finish, go work til morning then go back to sch. doesn't complain. continues this way de. hao pei fu him. then hor, we go watch movie. ask him dun buy 6.45pm show as i cant reach PS by then. he very confident say nvm de. its ok. so he went ahead buy tickets. end up we 7.10pm then go in. but only missed about 5mins of the show. haha. invisible target > must watch ^^

after movie, went makan yoshinoya. hear him talk about his stories during NS and sec sch days. quite interesting. then just walk around PS. dunno why cannot find the toilets on level one. end up walking up to level two for toilet. LOL. cannot blame la. me dun always go such places whereas he is more familiar with parklane. gamer lai de T_T now he is missing in action. cannot find him. still say pei me today. end up dunno where. either sleeping or hp silent or wad i guess. sadden. ni pian wo! bish! =X

lalala~ i had a meaningful yet tiring sunday.. i had cleaned and tidied up my room ! it took me close to 6 hours to make it organised xia. very surprised i took this long. but cant be blamed la. that room never ever mopped or wad for 5 years liao =X eversince i moved into this new house nor. LOL !

all the while i've got two beds in my room. used to have a roommate but she has moved out. so the extra bed makes me become a super lazy girl. forever throw my clothes, bags & stuff on the extra bed. never bothered to clean up. then my pa throw those unused luggage, cabinets & bed stuff in my room too. taking up a lot of space xia. those who came my house before will understand what i mean.

now my room looks pretty spacious liao. my own bed and the dressing table is still at same place. but in between these two, all the boxes and plastic bags are cleared. it has been arranged nicely into the cabinet. same goes for my clothes. all hanged up and folded accordingly. those will never wear again is placed inside a plastic bag and tied up. ready to be donated for recycling purposes. swept and mopped clean corners and floors. walls only certain part nia. once take pics and put my 'achievements' here =X

but hor. super angry with my dad. i wanna go buy plastic wrappers to wrap those useless and will create dust de things up b4 finding place to put it nicely de. then he moved it into my room without permission. say wad, its not dirty at all. won't take much space. crap de nor. extra mattress plus a BIG steam and sauna closet. doesnt take up much space? yah RIGHT! then right after he moved in, i go flipped the mattress. IMMEDIATELY AN BETTLE APPEAR ON THE MATTRESS. dammit. super mad. then he still say nvm de. kns.

luckily i decided to go buy plastic wrapping for everything like. and every other Sun or Sat shall mop my room once. lastly, this Sun will be moving my computer into my room also. then do the rest all tgt that day nor. hopefully will have time to do it. cos if my papa around, he won't let me move de. so must see how. haix. when i wanna be cleaned, this happened. done a good thing yet such ending. still >.< BOO!

hao sian wor. july first has passed, indictating that my age has increased by another year. classified as under the '20s' club liao ler >.<

didnt really celebrate. used the bday as an excuse to meet those friends whom i didnt see a long time. Sat noon met up with argumon & co for lunch at Dian Xiao Er. then go gaigai around amk til evening. headed over to find staCy after that. went to bugis and bought bag & a belt. shop shop shop til nothing to see then go LJS makan. stayed overnight at staCy's house. played PS2 and computer games til 3+am then sleeeeeeeep. Sun woke up and rush home to prepare. meet up with my Jane girl for K and dinner session til night. so yeah, thats it.

anyway, not much people remember my bday now. only a helpful does recall. *pengz* i wasnt on the top of many friends' list i know but... well, its alright. at least i know where i stand in their hearts. so thanks guys & girls !

hmmmm didnt blog pretty long alr. wad have i been up to? as usual work and home nor. due to certain colleagues leaving in this month, will assist to do some of the basic basic work so will be able to learn more and more liao. heex. oh yah, i was already confirmed as a staff somewhere mid-June. so another happy thing (:

didnt go out on weekends nowadays cos scare of the sun. lol. cant be helped la. its either i love the sun or hate it. everyday in aircon 830-7pm. never see nor feel the sun unless lunch time one. so now weekends buay tahan the hot burning sun thus even if go out, only after evening whahaha. but even at night i can sweat like hell. *dots* dunno what happen to me xia. so shall become a computer-lover xD

shall blog when i have more ideas *wave hand*

hmmm this month i overspent. also not sure why lei. i didnt realise until earlier today when i wanna redraw $50 but show "you got not enough cash". pengz. think its cos this month gotta pay for insurance plus friends' birthday. oh well, nvm. but i know coming month will be more broke. lolx. cos today wento walking around amk central. found a lot of things which i wanted to buy =x

firstly, i wanna get a dvd player. that is a pretty low priority to me. but as everyone knows, it is the GSS now after all. so got go see see. its costs about $50-$150. maybe will go Liang Court there buy bah. think its cheaper there. as for ZEN Vision W (a high priority to me), everywhere also selling $499 =( anyone wanna sponsors me for my birthday present? i dont mind xD i want new wallet and/or bag too. whahaha!

since im considering refurnishing my room, i went around looking at electrical appliances too. as i have 2 beds in my room, i want to dismantle one of them. so that i won't have the bad habit of throwing all my clothes on the extra bed lol. then hor, i wanna move my computer to my room. add on a mini fridge and a cooler. perfect liao! it will be like cosy home whereby i can do all i want without being watched by others. in that case, my dad will not be able to nag me either. nice plan! saw a few mini fridge priced at ~$100 but a cooler ranged from $150~. maybe get a wall fan instead. will be last than $100 in that case. hahax.

but obviously, its all talk. not sure when will i be able to carry that out. though i still have savings but then, now besides hp & internet bills, i still got additional bills like insurance and poly fees. plus i still wanna go study in 2 years de. T_T shen mo ban neng? hmmmm.... see how bah. think get my ZEN Vision W and hp le then plan how i wanna save up ;D

people come and go in our lives. we always get to know a new person in one way or another daily. friends also disappear without a trace for no reason. so gathering, separating and parting are all part of life experience.

in my workplace for example, there are newcomers and people who left for greener grass every month. see around 8 cases in 3.5months. this week itself already got two. one of which is working at LGA for close to 10months liao. he's gonna get married this year thus found a better pay job and left. will not say this took me by surprise but just.. :S

anyway, was chatting with some colleagues over lunch today. he said things arent what we see on the surface, which is often true in life. people who always communicate with you at work may see you as a good colleague. but after work? you are nobody to me, why should i tell you abt my private stuff? well, this beat-around-the-bush topic triggers me to blog about people who do matters to me.

in work, there are close to 10 people whom i feel are crucial to me. cos if they aint around, in other words leave the company, i may be affected by their departure. not including higher mgtmt, finance and izeno department of course. out of these 10 person, they are the ones who really know their work well (in my opinion) and they are the ones i turn to when i have queries. 2 for each department.. if one and/or both left, my morale will definitely go down de xia. especially those i always work with. not that i got no confident in myself. i am willing to learn and all that. but they are like my pillar of support you know? really hope they have no plans to leave... if they do... i dunno what will happen....

as for family and friends outside work, i realise the people who do matter and are important to me can be count with two hands. gonna name them here (not in order of preference) and see what happens to my friendship with them in 5 years haha.

1. Papa - he's my dad and brought me up all these years. of course he will be in the list man. without him, goodness know what will happen to me. huge possibility inside girls' home or wad xia. i love you dad. tho i never say it to you and hardly communicate with you, i'm really very thankful to you. I love you PaPa.

2. my Sis - its been pretty well known that i quarreled often due to our differences in character. but she is my blood sis afterall. and she do cares for me. i know i can count on her for help should i suffer any injustice. she'd proven that time again and again past few years.

3. Jane, JiaJing, YingXi & Shawnie - not sure where do i rank in their list of friends but i know they are the ones i turn to when i need a listening ear, ppl to acc me or just simply crap with me and together we move forward in our lives. girls, tho we dun always chat or meet up, all of you hold a place in my heart. a big "THANKS" pals!

4. n0 longer true this point. finally woke up to reality and had kept him as just a memory.
CHIN WEI TAT - not surprisingly, YOU are in my list. aint 'cos i cant forget you. its just our memories tgt; the sweet and the bitterness; i treasure them all. simplicity > i understand the meaning of this word because of you. the distance may grow between us each day. but i don't care. you are my Zhu Nao, my hamtaro. xintat's story never end.

5. Edwin - my best guy friend since 2005. you can complete my sentence without any error. you know my thoughts b4 i speak it out aloud. you are there whenever i need a listening ear or someone to cheer me up. we never contact pretty long due to your gf. but hey boy, its ok. i understand. remember me can liao ^^

6. last but not least, God - forever my source of refuge and strength. need i say more?

hmmmm so the list stops here. no one else came to my mind. those people who never got into this list, dun be offended. its just we hardly chat or more like accquantince you know? if i dun initiate conversation with ya, you dun talk to me. machaim the contacts are for show nia. but nvm, its alright. im not that great a friend to begin with anyway so no ill feelings.

omg, this entry so long. k la. end here liao then. drama time !

Was feeling bored so surfing on websites. Came across on Chakra and Karma these topics. Found them kinda interesting so paste it here. I've taken two tests online. Shall blogged about this so I will know the changes in myself as I grow older. Hahax. Well.. Here it goes :

This chakra is located in the center of your forehead and is often called the third eye. The sixth chakra represents your ability to see and really know truth. In your case, this chakra appears to be clear and unblocked so that positive energy can flow from it freely. Radiating positive energy from your sixth chakra indicates that you've cultivated higher wisdom concerning the important life lessons associated with this energy center. You're apt to be accepting of the people and events in your life rather than pass judgment on them. You're also likely to have developed a higher level of intuition than most people have.

Whether they're allowing positive energy to flow or preventing it from doing so, all seven of your body's chakras contribute to how you are feeling on a day-to-day basis. When they're balanced, you feel energized and at the top of your game. When they're unbalanced, you may feel tired or 'off'.

As for karma, you've earned these points by doing good things, therefore allowing good things to circle back to you. It seems that your selfless nature is earning you the most karma. This means that you're more willing than most people are to sacrifice yourself for those in need. Such kind efforts have helped you earn your karma up to this point. You'll typically go out of your way to help people even when the task is difficult or forces you to go out of your way. This willingness to assist others strengthens your current relationships and suggests it will come back to you positively in the future. Through your concerted efforts to make others' needs an important priority, you generate good karma for yourself and the universe.

Do I agree or disagree with the above? Not sure lei.
"The sixth chakra represents your ability to see and really know truth" - Yup. My mind thinks a lot so usually I am able to predict the outcome and what's the ending of a situation. Maybe part of me knows the way to avoid arguments and sadness but I always choose to let the nature develop the course. There's the reason for my moodswings for the past three years bah.

"You're apt to be accepting of the people and events in your life rather than pass judgment on them" - Definitely disagree with this statement. Actions speak louder than words. You may be a sweet talker but I will only listen and let it be like the wind. If you wish for me to believe in you, do something to prove you mean it. Otherwise, forget it. This mindset of mine is generated thru my past experiences with some friends.

"sacrifice yourself for those in need" - To a certain extent bah. I feel I put others in front of myself. As long as you are a very good friend of mine, you say one word. I will rush down to find you. Anyway I can help you, I will do it definitely. Maybe its cause I dun have much friends thus I treasure those close to me. But the ending is still similiar. I'm resigned to fate :(